Stuck in between nowhere | hazelnuteyes's Blog

I am sad. I'm masking the sadness with "Christmas Joy" so that I can be happy during the festivities later today and then deal with my problems later.

I thought I'd write them down while they are raw. So here we go:

Since I'm in a Long Distance Relationship, functioning without my other and better half is very difficult for me. I'm currently home for Christmas and I've seen him quite a bit, but thinking about going back is tormenting me. I push it away to live in the moment, but it creeps into my thoughts and brings me sadness.

So I know that I am going to have to be dealing with this for another year and a half and it hurts. I can't talk about it with the Love of My Life though, because it makes him angry that he can't be near me next year. So that's out of the question.

I can't talk about it with my parents, because we very recently had a whole talk about how they don't want me to just follow him around all "in love" and not have a career of my own. So if I try to talk to them about how Lovesick I am and lonely I am away from him, they'll probably just scorn me. I just can't tell them. I don't want to verbally admit how much I deeply love and care for him to them. I don't want to hear their disappointment.

So this leaves whom? Sigh.

This is my current dilemma.

This Blog Entry's Comment Board
There are no comments on this post yet, be the first to leave one!
Your Comment:

Previous Posts
Nothing will be the same, posted September 27th, 2014
3 year Anniversary, posted August 18th, 2014
Until I Die<3, posted February 9th, 2014
Third Part, posted November 13th, 2013
Second part to the story, posted November 12th, 2013
Wrote this for fun., posted November 7th, 2013
Joyful Crying, posted October 22nd, 2013
MY Summer, posted September 10th, 2013
Why must I follow your ways?, posted July 31st, 2013
Set Me On Fire, posted July 6th, 2013
I love you Darling<3, posted May 14th, 2013
Dream Cheating. What???, posted May 8th, 2013
Indifference, posted April 16th, 2013
Stuck in between nowhere, posted December 25th, 2012
No! <3 : ))))), posted October 15th, 2012
Rawr = Dinosaur, posted October 1st, 2012
Heartache Capital, Heartache City, posted September 21st, 2012
Day 18 of My Long Distance Relationship, posted September 11th, 2012
Day 10 of My Long Distance Relationship, posted September 2nd, 2012
I am HazelnutEyes, posted August 21st, 2012

Here are some friends' blogs...

How to Embed Photos in your Blog Embed Photos How to Embed Videos in your Blog Embed Videos